I’ve been meaning to blog lately, and I never seem to get around to it. I guess I wish to discuss important topics, yet if I punch out something with typos and full of internalized thoughts only then it will look retarded. I’m now willing to take the retarded look – (not that I haven’t before). Heck I’m ALL DERRRRRR
Alright, I’m assuming people are interested in how my new catholic world is going. It’s going OK, it’s not a job I will ever thrive on, because the cause is so intellectually bankrupt, but I’m here with Grant and we’re working things out well. I do my hours and remain professional.
It’s pretty bland here I must say. I thought there would be a few die hard atheists out here to discuss interesting stuff (like the truth), but it seems everyone has the dummy in the mouth, I’m certainly on my own here and I feel like I’m stuck in a time portal some times. As weird as it sounds, I’m also in ‘watch my back’ mode, and for my own security (even if just in my head) I should act more agnostic. I’m getting sent to do a day course in ‘catholic education’. I’m gonna treat it like centerlink and tell them the answers they want to hear. Be a shallow agnostic for a while. But if you don’t hear from me for too longer period of time, assume I’m burried in the desert somewhere, burning in pretend hell.
The school is basically a remand school in the middle of nowhere. The only fuckas willing to take on such a role would be religious nut jobs, but it is a good gospel spreading opportunity, you can really rack em up out here with people of such little education and worldly experience (my I sound so fucking grand). Plaster it with candy wrap and subscribe to nonsense like everyone else
I’m groping at idealogies here. I can see that the boogy man under the bed is a good tool of control in such a feral place (being potentially out of control kids). I can’t argue with that. I just wish it was like Santa Claus where the adults actually KNEW the truth and admitted it around other adults. Perhaps adults are never adults, they are only big kids and always need a boogie man. I dunno. This place is full of ‘products of their own environments’ – it’s pretty hard core tho, because not only are they products of their environments, they are actively trying to put matrixes on on other peoples lives – who are too young and naive to know better – which I TOTALLY don’t agree with. Sure you could say – ‘well you do that too’, but I’ve a non narcissistic, rational argument for that. Yes I do, but with excellent usage of the tools available at my disposal. I might sound ignorant to other people, but if they have chosen to waste their adult years sopping up bullshit because it was easy that is their damage not mine.
I’ve worked out this faith thing. Yes I have faith in science and knowlege. To say I have faith in atheism tho wouldn’t make sense because there is absolutely nothing to being an atheist, it’s not like you do anything to lay your faith in.. unless you want to put a new title on common sense. The only faith I have in atheism is the desperate hope that other educated people debunk the delusion factor before it’s too late.
Now to have faith in other people to as a whole be working out the big picture through a tangible world (basically so everyone is on the same playing field) called science is a much SMALLER leap of faith than to have faith in authority figures spouting bronze age mystical rubbish because they are either a. just ignorant or b. corrupted. I think it’s 50/50 rational, maybe more 60/40, I’m not sure yet. The funny thing is that the very place they seek refuge is the exact same place that the intelligent predators hunt in. It’s a place of confusion and a place of fear. Unless you are removed from the christian mindset, you can’t escape it.
One would have to agree with me there, it is a SMALLER leap of faith to believe in something which does have evidence – even if just some of that evidence is only maths… it’s something most atheists have pondered and sifted actively through, it’s something they have scrutinized and removed themselves from, it’s a personal decision for me that I am capable of making the right decision, even if everyone else is making the wrong decision because some enimactic person bullshitted (a very unoriginal idea) in their ear (eg, gospel spreading – anyone say cult these days?)
So yes, I have faith in myself and other active minded human beings to be seeking the truth. Whether it is true in 10 years time I really don’t care, because this is honestly the best you get, unless you wish to believe all the evolutionary tricks our brain chemistry can lay on us in the name of survival – which is something christianity actively exploits. Spirituality makes me turn green in disgust and throws a wet towel over something I’d considered really beautiful. It spoils it. Plain and simple. Infact that’s the problem, spirituality is just a simple simple word with little real substance – unless you are into mind tricks or just full of shit.
So I still stand by my old saying that people believe in god because they are not intelligent enough to believe in themselves, to trust themselves and themselves alone to make decisions. What SHOULD be scary to them is outside of their thought patterns entirely, that a capital world (soooo utterly different and evolved from their own) is actively out there seeing dollar signs on their heads. Now that is their real threat, but they will just assume God is puting them through a trial while others actively EXPLOIT EXPLOIT EXPLOIT. It’s really sorta ingenious in it’s own special way – their gods are actually the people they fear most.
